我讨厌这样的我们..
on vdae i finally told xiao xing i want us to take a break. like half a yr, till i go back n we’ll see how things go. he cld do wateva he wans now.. go salsa everyday if he’d like, watch tv, surf net, read comics wateva.. need not be held back by any obligations to talk to me.
the relationship has reached a point where too much negative feelings have built up. it has lost its innocence n beauty, n i dun see how it can be solved easily.
i tend to be an impulsive person wif such things.. and altho i’ve thot abt this a million times, i still cannot be sure that im not bein rash. oh well.. it was a very painful decision. was cryin like a little girl again.. but wat’s new? im jus a crybaby.. i think i have to skip class today.. sian.. waste money leh.
xing xing is full of optimism.. he thinks we can work things out again. unlike him, im a pessimist n im weak. but i do think it’s a matter of time before i will get better. or maybe i wont.. n i may be crawlin back to him very soon..
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