lil’ snow white

小妹妹 ::	xiao wan zi became skinny again

小妹妹 ::	no more boobs

小星 ::	how come? u starved yourself ah?

小妹妹 ::	noo… it’s jus very hard to be fat.

yah alot of ppl must be thinkin “hell yeah, bitch..” but it’s true! last term, as part of my Gimme Bigger Boobs Plan, i stuffed myself wif cheese, cream n other fatty stuffs n managed to obtain quite visible results. however after my bad cough in xmas, i slimmed down again n this fatty diet thing is gettin a bit too much n makin me feel abit sick.

maybe i shld start gg to e gym again.. it might help gimme better appetite for fatty stuffs haha!

2. staying skinny

my childhood fren came over frm scotland to stay over e wkend. on sat, she went to a makeup trade show n only had a sandwich for lunch. when she came back, she said she was really hungry (i can imagine) n had instant noodles n a small piece of pancake that she brought along frm glasgow.. then she said she was very full. i was shocked cos i thot that amt of food looked like breakfast to me.

n then i was havin my lunch at 5+pm cos i was feelin very upset over someone.. n she said “now i noe why u’re so skinny!”

then at 9+pm i felt hungry again so i had dinner.

both lunch n dinner were proper meals wif rice n stuffs.. i was pretty sure i ate more in 4 hrs than wat she ate in e entire day. but she jus hadda go on sayin “u really eat very little..”, “when i’m in scotland i’d eat alot more” etc etc.. blah blah blah..

ok ok.. i get ur pt. i dun needa be e biggest female eater u’ve ever known who’s still slim. i’m jus a normal eater; i eat more than many girls, but there’re tons of girls who eat more than i do. my appetite depends largely on my mood n e food. n i do go to e gym once in a while. put that wif a nice metabolic rate n i’m kept in this very skinny shape.

alot of ppl have said these kinda things to me (n others) before. again n again. perhaps it’s jus a form of self delusion which makes them feel alot better for being fatter than us the “skinny” girls. wateva. ok im bein a bitch again haha.

she insisted on wearin my one n only t-shirt to slp n she over-stretched it. e t-shirt’s frm mango n it’s of lousy quality so it’s all loose now. 我不跟她好了. hmph.

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u must be thinkin “r u kiddin me? a pack of grapes?” hah yah i noe.. but this stupid small pack of grapes cost me £4 n i’ve been to e supermarket 100 times but had always stopped myself frm buyin it tho i’m dyin to have some grapes here. e white grapes were at half price but i dun really eat white grapes at all so i jus thot heck n finally bought this today.

see.. london is not all abt havin fun n travellin for me. it’s also abt bein independent n keepin to budget (yah.. i try haha) unless i wanna end up like that someone who needs to find a part time job now. i dun wanna work part time. i jus wanna watch heroes!

n then as part of my new Healthy Lifestyle Campaign, i decided to buy more fruits like apples + bananas.. and camomile tea! there was a promotion jus when i wanna get it!! yippee! my childhood fren told me tea has lotsa anti-oxidants n will improve my koyak complexion. but then after that i realised tt it’s pure camomile, so maybe it’s not a tea? argh i duno. wateva.. camomile is my fave tea!

n then my classmate gave me a HUGE pack of milo today! i say it’s huge cos when he told me he’ll give his last pack to me, i thot it was a small 3-in-1 satchet.. but no, it’s like 10 times bigger! yippee!

suddenly i have so many new things to drink in my room! ribena, milo, 2 boxes of camomile, fresh milk! haha! so fun.. i love e feelin of bein spoilt for choice. yeah.. stupid.

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n then e unknown figure who goes ard nailin ppl on e wall? that was really creepy too.

n then while watchin i hadda pause n catch my breath, n suddenly u noe wat? jay chou’s song suddenly started playin on my pc!! freaked e shit outta me. it’s a notification on my msn but oh well nothin happened, no one came online so i’m not sure why e notification came on.

oh well unexplainable things do happen at times.. like e printer startin to print out wat i wanna print before i even opened e file, or e msn playin e notification song i wanna hear.. but im sure there’s nothin wrong ard here. haha..

im not scared now. :p

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but perhaps that’s how u get all e “sudden breakups” gg ard. e first person wld suddenly request to break up n e latter will go “HUH! WAT? wat happened?” etc but oh well.. i always believe that things happen for a reason. i dun believe in sudden breakups, unless i (or my bf) go n sleep wif someone else. which is almost 100% unlikely.

i always give hints.. n warnings.. but somehow they dun work on my beloved xing xing. maybe he loves me too much. plus he’s a very nice person by nature.

am i makin sense here? maybe not. hah.. after all, i dun get it at all.

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i wonder if it’s cos she cldnt accept e fact tt her dad married some other woman very soon after my nanny passed away. im really upset over it. they were like my 2nd family.. n now everyone’s gone on separate ways, no longer in contact..

i felt upset for not makin e effort to see my nanny more before she passed away. i was a heartless, rebellious teenager. i cldnt stop cryin at e thot of it.

i told xiao xing abt it. he jus said he doesnt quite understand how i feel cos he din use to have a nanny. oh well.. i think he was busy wif installin some interesting things on his pc.

maybe im jus too emotional.. weak…

wonder if this is too personal to be posted. xing xing always says we shldnt disclose too much of our info online..

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n i jus like to bitch abt ppl. that’s a hobby i enjoy doin wif fiona wahaha!

e athens trip was still enjoyable n e company was ok.. of course i have high standards so only few ppl will be branded as “good company” in my opinion, n only few places will make it to my list of must-go destinations.

okie.. more on e trip in e next post!

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my fren wanted to go check out e islands durin this athens trip. like REALLY wanna check them out. however e popular Santorini n Mykonos were too far/expensive by ship/air so we decided against that. but then someone jus die die hadda check out an island.. since u noe, island hoppin is e cool thing to do in greece, so he suggested gg to aegina.

me: i dun really wanna spend e money on e boat ride if it’s too exp. i’m runnin low on euros.
him: I personally feel that it’s ok to change €100 more?

did i tell u that I personally feel tt someone who hasnt got enough money to last him till e end of e sch term shld bloody fuckin wake up his idea n perhaps start cuttin on his expenses?

no i din, cos i noe tt some ppl jus dun wanna appear “loserish” n wanna live wat seems to be a “better” life in london. i have a budget to keep to n i think tt’s absolutely fine.

n did i tell u that I personally feel tt if for every 20 days i’m travellin, u’re travellin less than 5, i dun see why i shld spend €50 more than u unless i’m 4 times richer than u?

no i din, cos i noe i’m not 4 times richer. i jus have enough for e whole stint n i live by my budget.

n did i tell u that I personally feel tt my $600+ burberry bag was sucha GOOOOOD buy n u were bein stupid for not buyin that one that cost less than $500 for ur mum?

no i din, cos i noe everyone places a different value on things n i have no say abt wat others feel is more impt. so dun come tellin me u personally feel it’s ok to spend more on food etc.

i spend on food only if i think they’re worth it. not on burnt octopus tentacles which e waitor did not even bother mentionin when u asked for recommendations, but u went ahead n ordered anyway cos u jus wanted to have seafood so badly n that was e only seafood choice u had. cos u noe.. havin seafood’s like the thing to do in athens ya?

n when u said tt u personally feel tt ppl who do not even try clubbin r really a sad case, did i tell u tt I personally feel tt i think it’s even more pointless for u to go “check out” e clubs n jus drink n ppl watch, perhaps jus so u cld tell ur frens u’ve been to e happening spots?

no i din, cos while i’m a true blue clubber (perhaps expiring), i noe tt there’re tons of ppl out there who jus find joy in ppl watchin n others who jus dun enjoy bein in a club, smoke-free or not.

oh well peeps, u get e idea.. i need not say more. pls jus try not to impose ur own standards on others especially when sthg jus sounds so not right? everyone needs to try not to try too hard. haha.

i ordered some dress + tops + kinky overknee stockings frm ASOS jus 2 nites ago n they’ve arrived! in less than 2 workin days! Yippee!

anyway me n classmate uzma went to catch I Am Legend today after lunch as a celebration hah!

it was sooo freakin scary n my heart almost stopped durin e show. i cld feel it pounding so hard, my bra almost burst hahaha! n then suddenly i cldn’t breathe properly n i thot i was almost gonna get a heart attack.

i thot it was quite a good show, since i duno e original novel it was based on. but then it was jus too taxing on my heart, especially after sittin thru a killer paper. it reminded me of 28 wks later, which i watched wif baby. this one wasnt that gruesome.. u’ll see less creatures n blood but Will Smith’s acting is jus superb. u can jus die frm e suspense + fear. haha.

hah i’m gg to greece in a few hrs. i havent packed n i havent got any idea abt wat to do/see there since i was busy wif exams. n damn i totally forgot to change euros!! now i gotta go to e airport n be subject to e lousiest rates ever.. not to mention e loss frm e darn fallin pounds. boohoo.

shall do e update on both e long outdated italy trip plus e greece trip when im back! ciao!

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