lil’ snow white

for almost 2 yrs i’ve been gg to michelle’s alteration at far east level 2 and have been very satisfied with their service. michelle used to have a helper and now two, but she’d say she’ll alter my clothes herself.

almost half e clothes in my wardrobe have been altered and just last wk i brought 6 pieces for her to alter. and out of which, 4 were like fuckin big shit.

#1: e jeans were shorter than wat i’d requested for.. AND one side was longer than e other by abt half a cm. excuse me, i dun even needa measure them to noe ok. i jus wear them n I CAN TELL IT’S ONE SIDE LONG, ONE SIDE SHORT. and that bloody thing still dare to insist that no, it’s correct etc etc. NEVER MIND. i jus took it off and measured for her to see. so she hadda re-alter them on e spot for me.

#2: e forever21 dress. was AT LEAST two inches loose, and again, one side looser than e other. fuck.. k this she altered for me on e spot again n since this is not some fave dress im not so pissed. till now i havent really checked e piece jus in case i get another heart attack.

#3: my new fave zara mini skirt. i thot this was half an inch too long (by gut feel) so i discussed wif her n decided that e best way to handle this is to shorten e front by half an inch n leave e back untouched. so this means she’ll have to slowly connect both sides skilfully. fuck shit. in e end it was AGAIN, one side shorter than e other. it was jus a slight difference but bein e fussy me, i asked if she can redo it for me. she said

“如果你这样差一分都要我改，那我不就死了?”

IN THE FIRST PLACE U SHLDNT EVEN ALLOW THAT  一分 DIFFERENCE TO BE PRESENT! WAT TAILOR IS THIS? u tell me which fucker will bring clothes to a tailor n expect e clothes to be one side longer than e other? FUCKIN IDIOT.

#4: and e limit came today.. my zara dress. i’ve alrdy decided to wear this dress for my dnd tmr so i was tryin it on today like wat i always do wif my new clothes. have to wear them in e hse n feel comfy b4 wearin them out. n fuck.. this is really really bad. again, one side was tighter than e other and this is so much more obvious because it’s a low cut v-neck dress. so if i were to wear e dress properly, one side of e bra will be revealed while e other side is covered becos now one side has more cloth than e other. and i’ve scrutinised it alrdy today n all cloth has been cut n there’s no remedy now.

so now i have to wear e dress lop-sided so that it can cover e right boob. it’s lucky that e sleeves are big n can cover e lop-sided seams at e side. but still it feels very uncomfortable wearin a dress with tilted sleeves n all e seams are pushed like 10-deg counter-clockwise n fuckin keep feelin so weird can. n i’ll feel so conscious abt it n will keep feelin e right side to make sure that e bra aint showin.

wat e hell rite. if i spend like $12-18 to alter each dress that i buy it jus means that i wanna feel 100% comfortable n confident of e dress i’m wearin. since most dresses are, by fussy candy’s std, not of good fit. duh.. it’s jus fuckin bad service this time round and bad skills and bad luck to spoil my dnd dress. to think that i’m sucha loyal regular at her shop! how pissed!!! i suspect e reason cld be cos michelle had asked e new girl to alter, since i had no trouble wif other clothes so far for e past 1 yr+.. argh.. why??? why??? why??? why do they have to jus ruin it when i’m bringin my dnd dress to them?? why so fuckin sick??

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after so many wks, i finally broke down again last nite.

i guess i was so super steady for e past few wks cos i was convinced that he’s not e one for me and we’re not compaitable n i shldnt be sad etc etc.

but last nite, i heard that he brought a girl to the salsa event at upper club on sat. was e 2nd time he brought her along, i heard. much as i wanted to go for e event, i decided to give it a miss since im still afraid of bumpin into him. but wat e hell.. why must he bring someone along? i heard she doesnt even dance. wat e fuck. why doesnt he spare a thot for me?

why is it that he can jus go wherever he wants to while i have to worry abt this that everything? i’m jus bloody stupid and dumb rite! so upset that i jus cried myself to bed last nite. argh.. hate to be feeling down. hate it hate it hate it!!

why is it so difficult for candy to have a stable r/s that lasts?

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this is makin me irritated. today i was talkin to Ms E abt student and i was sayin i wanna be wif him (tho not in the near future). so i got too excited over it and we were talkin abt virgins n i said yep i wanna have him, and she started sayin:

为什么你这样？为什么每一个男的喜欢你，你就要跟他在一起，你就要吃掉他 meh？

NABEH…! this is so fuckin annoyin. it’s not exactly perfect chinese, but roughly it implies that im like so desperate, i needa accept ANY guy who likes me.

k maybe e part abt bein deprived sexually is true right now (wahaha!).. but e other part abt liking ANY guy who expresses his interest in me.. this is like.. how irritating how irritating!! so irritating!!

when i don’t tell u abt other guys, it doesnt mean there’s no one gg after me. it simply means i’m not interested and they’re not worth mentioning! argh.. pissed pissed pissed pissed pissed!

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it happened yesterday when i tried to open that bloody stupid toilet door with the stupid faulty handle. was holdin on to too many stuffs so the poor finger din have enough strength to exactly pull e door open. so.. shiak! suddenly my poor finger slipped and the poor nail became like this. yah, think shiak was the sound.

yucks.

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u get different responses when u tell different guys that “hey it’s not a date”.

student was cool + cute.. he said “yah i noe, it’s an outing.” oh wow wee. how did he noe that the term “outing” always gets me excited? hahaa..

but today before i met this other guy, i smsed him sayin “before i meet u, i must let u noe that it’s not a date”. he din reply. k, thot he was feelin disappointed n din noe how to reply. when we met, he behaved like nothin happened, like i din say anythin.

bein e kpo one, i asked if he received my sms. and he said yah and started smilin in a… errh… i-dunno-how-to-describe but like very happy, a bit shy manner.

eh wassup man. i thot it was like a rejection sms?? i dun understand leh. hmmm … thing is we have alot to talk abt, but… it’s jus different lor. *shrugs

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butter factory last nite was sooooo good!!

was gg for salsa at union and then Mr C said he’s gg butter factory. so i got tempted n asked student if there’s any chance the guys r gg down n HAHA! he said chances r high. kns thot he’s supposed to be studyin.

so then i met Mr C and his colleague who looks so much like angel’s bf, jey hahaha. so colleague asked wat i wanna drink n bein a dum ass i said Martell!! and voila! martell we had for e nite! think guys jus cannot lose face when they’re outside. (Danger #1)

anyway Mr C is recently married to e girl he’s dated for e past 3×3 yrs. i’ve always thot he’s “frenlier” than e average guy but still prim n proper. but hell no. altho i dun allow e guys to touch me here there, u can see how naughty they are when they dance wif u and try to come up frm behind n grind u n all u can feel is THAT THING. fuck. (Danger #2)

well, student wasnt that naughty. everyone claims he’s shy n he’s a V. wahahaha. we almost died laughin last nite. so anyway at a pt i told him i was gg back to join Mr C and colleague n he said “huh, no lar stay here n dance wif me leh.” and so i did lo hahaha! freak… see, even shy guys get naughty when they had too much to drink. (Danger #3)

when e nite was over, i chose to share a cab home wif student altho Mr C’s colleague offered to send me home. wahaha! ok student is indeed a shy guy and that turns me so on. shit.. wahaha. but well like i said when a guy is high n he sends u home, sthg’s bound to happen. that sthg is different for different guys, dependin on how naughty they are. (Danger #4)

so altho the nite was so super duper fun and i was so damn bloody high, it also showed me (once again) how e different guys are all up to sthg naughty when they club. so the moral of e story is: dun take chances. dun get a bf who clubs! k but think that’s a bit hard for me wahahaha!

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kian boon, deyao, adeline, me, fatty student, shaohao.

and so i was jokin that student might jus be the guy i had a crush on durin my short stint at AJC. this got me thinkin abt who e hell that crush was. wahaha. seems like i’ve long forgotten who that guy was, forgot his face, his name etc. anyway it was jus a crush, so u can’t expect me to rem rite…

but student does seem to be a little of e same pattern as the long forgotten crush leh. hah… think i shall borrow his yearbook and see i find anyone familiar. wahaha!

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yay!! i had a helluva time at union square last nite!!

had some good trainin wif seph n i managed to do triple spins quite properly n did even quadruple spins!! woohoo! k but then din exactly end very well for that haha. shall invite seph to be part of my regular dance partner gang!

also danced with many other good guys n it was so fun so fun!! haha. i havent enjoyed myself so so so much at union before! maybe e musicality class i went to before that also helped cos now i can hear e beats much better yay yay!

anyway there was this time when they were playin a very nice bachata (sensuous dance) song n i saw my shifu dancin with Ms H (flirtatious girl) beside me. and their bodies were like stuck together! girl back-facin guy n she stuck her back on his chest. man!! i’ve always thot shifu was a very prim n proper guy n altho he says it’s actually ok to dance bachata like that, but i think it’s hmmm.. a little too much. haha.

maybe im prejuduced against her. but these ppl r weird lar. how can one dance liddat wit someone they have no feelings for? so i told shifu if he ever sees me dancin liddat wif a guy, it prolly means he’s my bf or i like him or im jus flirting. haha. ok… maybe i jus need some time to get used to e real bachata. bleahs.

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me n student went on an outin at vivocity! we watched the prestige!

i think it was such a good movie! it got me thinkin even after i reached home abt how cleverly the story was written n how the clues were so subtly dropped throughout the movie but we were jus led into believin sthg else. well maybe they din build up e suspense enough so some ppl might think tt it’s a slow n jus ok-ok movie, but i think it’s so smart haha. i like such movies!

after e movie, we were lost (again) tryin to find e carpark n damn!! freak!! we saw this!!

me and student posed for pics at the nice park at level 3 before we left. can’t see shit in e background. think i needa change camera soon. the nite mode sucks!!

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pics frm adeline’s solemnization! was held at the preview lounge at cineleisure one wk after her weddin dinner (ok.. this is kinda queer). it was quite a cool place n e food was good!

the couple and cute flower girls makin their entrance!

signin of the marriage certificate! i wanna get married too! hahaha

me with my dream kid livia!

haha livia got adeline’s hand bouquet!!

i love flowers! esp when they’re on me! haha red is nice!

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