tryin, tryin..
it’s a rough patch me n baby have been going thru, as we finally realised the root to our problems. lack of trust, i attribute the probs to. it prolly started frm me, when i was too harsh wif my words in e past, and now he’s become too defensive whenever i make negative comments.
it’s not that im oblivious to this prob. so eventually whenever i have some comments, i keep them to myself if i think it’s gonna give baby the wrong idea that i’m tryin to manipulate him.
it’s so hard tryin to fix sthg that shld’ve come so naturally. like communication. sometimes we get so sian abt our r/s, so i suggested a split up last nite. frm then till this morn, i jus cldnt stop cryin. lookin over to my baby who’s so soundly aslp, i jus can’t help but feel so sad thinkin that it might be our last morn together.
so this morn, i asked if we shld give our r/s one more try. and i said i’ll try to trust, and baby will have to be less defensive, and we shall be more open to each other. i dunno if this is gonna work tho. sometimes i jus dunno how those couples survive thru e years n still be so lovin. don’t they ever feel like givin up?
in any case i hope we can work things out n even out our differences. i dunno wat e future holds but i love my baby too much right now to let him go. i’m not sure if he’s e one for me but i seriously wish that he is.
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i think love is never smooth sailing…everyone has their quirks and problems. at the end of the day, i think a r/s is a committment and how both parties try to handle and resolve the problems and stay happy…easier said than done but at least we try…
u see the vicious cycle?
to passerby: yeah but sometimes u dunno if u shld continue tryin (harder) or if u shld jus give up. i dunno when’s e time to stop tryin, n i’m worried tt i might be too rash..
to winnie: then how did u last so long wif ur bf? i really dunno how r/s last. sounds so lousy. heh.
hmm.. just keep trying i guess.. if u think he’s the one then dun give up. rem, the next one might not be as gd..
Yah I agree just keep trying coz from what i see you do love him alot, even though I noe what u mean that it can get pretty tiring. BUT dun give up. Give up only when u Truly DO NOT feel anything for the person. BUT I guess you guys are still very much in love so Gan Batte!!
even if it all doesn’t work out in the end (choy choy choy) u’ll feel like u tried ur best & have no regrets mah.. =) jia you!!
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