tryin, tryin..
it’s a rough patch me n baby have been going thru, as we finally realised the root to our problems. lack of trust, i attribute the probs to. it prolly started frm me, when i was too harsh wif my words in e past, and now he’s become too defensive whenever i make negative comments.
it’s not that im oblivious to this prob. so eventually whenever i have some comments, i keep them to myself if i think it’s gonna give baby the wrong idea that i’m tryin to manipulate him.
it’s so hard tryin to fix sthg that shld’ve come so naturally. like communication. sometimes we get so sian abt our r/s, so i suggested a split up last nite. frm then till this morn, i jus cldnt stop cryin. lookin over to my baby who’s so soundly aslp, i jus can’t help but feel so sad thinkin that it might be our last morn together.
so this morn, i asked if we shld give our r/s one more try. and i said i’ll try to trust, and baby will have to be less defensive, and we shall be more open to each other. i dunno if this is gonna work tho. sometimes i jus dunno how those couples survive thru e years n still be so lovin. don’t they ever feel like givin up?
in any case i hope we can work things out n even out our differences. i dunno wat e future holds but i love my baby too much right now to let him go. i’m not sure if he’s e one for me but i seriously wish that he is.
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