my week of suffering
by the second day i was feelin extremely uncomfortable n hadda bear with wat i’d claim as the worst ‘hangover’ i’ve ever had. baby came down after his work n i started cryin like a baby who was so helpless with her condition.
at ard dinner time i woke up frm a nap n realised that i had trouble keepin my head straight. without the slightest clue as to wat was happenin to me, i went down to see my family doc. he claims that it’s prolly jus cos i strained my neck while slpin or sthg n gave me some muscle relaxant.
i felt so terrible with the cramps in the neck, i cldnt even sit up straight. i was so afraid that there was sthg wrong wif my nerves cos u see, vertigo is some inflammation of the balancin system in the ears n affects the nerves. since i’m so prone to vertigo it made me wonder if there’s anythin wrong wif my nervous system. i started imagining the worst case scenarios and started weepin again.
that nite i vomitted every single time i tried to eat and by midnite, the neck and shoulders were so unbearable and abnormal that mummy suggested gg to the hospital. the hospital trip really saved me. it turned out that i was allergic to the nausea n giddiness pills and they were causin all the spasms in my neck. so all i hadda do was to replace the medicine n get a jab.
then on thurs i was almost fine, till i started havin diarrhoea for no apparent reason. damn. and then yesterday (sat) the diarrhoea was gone n the menstrual cramps struck. fuckin hell. it was a whole week of torture for poor little candy.
and the worst thing is, after all the horrible symptoms have subsided, i’m left feelin very traumatised by the ordeal. it made me truly understand how fragile life can be and how short our life is gonna be. i am so afraid to die now.
and all in my head, i thot of me and baby. we only got together for such a short time, i seriously do not wan us to part so soon. i even pictured us near the end of our lives, only to realise that a lifetime together was not enough. can we still be together in our next lives? i kept wonderin, only to conclude that it wasnt so possible after all. it was so depressing.
the depressing thots coupled wif hormonal imbalance durin the menstrual period are really makin me go nuts. i only wish to spend more time wif baby now so i asked him to stay wif me every nite for the time being. i seriously hope that i can return to being + feeling normal soon. GOD, help…
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Cheer up Gerlie!! coz at least I think you have a sweet bf who is willing to stay over and accompany you for every nite at ur request.
Hi Candy!
I hope and I’m sure that u soon will feel “normal” again. I promise!!!
And by the way..I’ve seen ur photos and u look G8..!
U are lucky to have such a nice boyfriend that takes so good care of u.
“can we still be together in our next lives?”
Some times I just think that u can…
People that u have that special bond to, that connection u just can’t describe.
But its there and its so soooo strong.
That’s when I start thinking of reincarnation…
I think that some people always will be together, that’s there destiny..! A big hug from me to u. =)
Hey girl… sorry for the late comment. I hope you’ll be better by now. Do take care and meet up soon!
Yoohoo! i’m fine now peeps! feeling very normal now, but the wk of illnesses seem to have a big impact on me.
it’s changed how i see life. if i have the time i’ll blog abt it. take care peeps! health is the most impt asset in life!
can i make friend with you??