lil’ snow white

by the second day i was feelin extremely uncomfortable n hadda bear with wat i’d claim as the worst ‘hangover’ i’ve ever had. baby came down after his work n i started cryin like a baby who was so helpless with her condition.

at ard dinner time i woke up frm a nap n realised that i had trouble keepin my head straight. without the slightest clue as to wat was happenin to me, i went down to see my family doc. he claims that it’s prolly jus cos i strained my neck while slpin or sthg n gave me some muscle relaxant.

i felt so terrible with the cramps in the neck, i cldnt even sit up straight. i was so afraid that there was sthg wrong wif my nerves cos u see, vertigo is some inflammation of the balancin system in the ears n affects the nerves. since i’m so prone to vertigo it made me wonder if there’s anythin wrong wif my nervous system. i started imagining the worst case scenarios and started weepin again.

that nite i vomitted every single time i tried to eat and by midnite, the neck and shoulders were so unbearable and abnormal that mummy suggested gg to the hospital. the hospital trip really saved me. it turned out that i was allergic to the nausea n giddiness pills and they were causin all the spasms in my neck. so all i hadda do was to replace the medicine n get a jab.

then on thurs i was almost fine, till i started havin diarrhoea for no apparent reason. damn. and then yesterday (sat) the diarrhoea was gone n the menstrual cramps struck. fuckin hell. it was a whole week of torture for poor little candy.

and the worst thing is, after all the horrible symptoms have subsided, i’m left feelin very traumatised by the ordeal. it made me truly understand how fragile life can be and how short our life is gonna be. i am so afraid to die now.

and all in my head, i thot of me and baby. we only got together for such a short time, i seriously do not wan us to part so soon. i even pictured us near the end of our lives, only to realise that a lifetime together was not enough. can we still be together in our next lives? i kept wonderin, only to conclude that it wasnt so possible after all. it was so depressing.

the depressing thots coupled wif hormonal imbalance durin the menstrual period are really makin me go nuts. i only wish to spend more time wif baby now so i asked him to stay wif me every nite for the time being. i seriously hope that i can return to being + feeling normal soon. GOD, help…

on 13th feb nite, we got into bed n i waited ard half an hr before i was certain my baby was sound aslp. i got up and fished out a mont blanc paper bag which was so well hidden in my wardrobe. then i quietly took baby’s wallet, went to the kitchen, n transferred all the barang in it into the new wallet which i’ve bought for him.

in the ID compartment, i placed a laminated photo of us with baby’s beloved fatty doggy. when all was done, i slipped a tiny card into the wallet n placed it back to the usual spot.

and early in the morn on valentine’s day, my baby woke up n got ready to leave for work. jus as he was abt to place his ‘wallet’ into his pocket, he realised that it din feel like usual and TADA~! MY BABY GOT A VERY NICE + SWEET SURPRISE!!

and that nite, we made baked penne together. it din taste as great as our x’mas cod fish, and our wine opener broke(!) so we had no wine that nite, but it was still alot of fun cooking together and spendin time chattin over dinner!

and for v-day, my baby bought a bouquet of 3 lilies for $90 (WTH!!) and he pulled the same trick on me by puttin the perfume he bought for me in my cupboard. so un-original.. WAHAHA! my baby is so silly but i love him so much! Muacks~!

candy is another weird girl who buys 3 tops of the same design but in different colors, and alters any clothin that’s half an inch looser or longer than how it shld be.

haha wat a fun time shoppin wif erica today after work! the more we shop together, the more we discover each other’s quirks in shoppin n maintainin our wardrobes (like labellin the hangers, recordin the dates the clothes are worn etc) hahaha! erica’s my new nice + attentive shoppin kaki~!