i miss darling.. n i made poor baby cry.
it’s national day~! i’ve not watched NDP for yrs, n i’ve neva cared abt national day in e past. but this yr, i was really excited abt watchin it.. watchin e 3 chinooks fly past wif e flag, watchin e color party, e fireworks et al. yeah.. it was prolly cos of anthony. he was flyin in no. 2 chinook..
maybe it’s cos national day reminded me too much of him. i kept dreamin of him for many nites b4 this. i’ve seldom dreamt abt him even in e past. it totally sucks.. i jus miss him so much but i jus can’t tell him.
yes, n i told yujin baby tt we jus can’t be together. tt was after he “confessed” to me tt he was helpin his ex in gettin outta some shit. he thot it was cos of his “confession” tt i came to such a decision, but it really wasnt. shockin thing was.. he cried cos of it. gosh.. i feel kinda guilty. damn.
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