lil’ snow white

jus watched e qualification rds of Olympics rhythmic gym.

was pretty impressed wif Russia’s Alina Kabaeva. she dropped her ball once durin her routine n yet still emerged as top qualifier.

sometimes i jus cldnt help but wished tt i had train harder in e past when i had e chance to.

at least i’d haf achieved sthg at nationals. at least i’d haf sthg to tell my kid in future. haha.

wells, i sure hope tt my future kid will haf e interest n talent in rhythmic. i always thot tt gymnasts look like princesses n fairies, wif their hair all neatly pulled back into a bun n their nice leotards.. n their long, slim legs!

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today i made a decision to change my shampoo n conditioner. heh. wells.. haf been usin e current brand for more than 3 yrs, n such a decision to change brand is one which took me some time to decide on.

anyway it’s time for a change. i’ve neva really liked changes, if u dunno yet. hahaha. in any case, my hair’s almost a gone case so hope tt e new brand will give me some shinier, smoother n nicer-smellin hair!

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why do chocolates make sore throat worse?

i’m havin this bad throat inflammation.. but i stole 2 tiny tiny chocolates frm e fridge(?) wahahaha~! nothin bad happened. my throat din hurt more.

so is it true tt chocolates make sore throat worse?? in any case e pack of chocolates is alrdy wif me in front of e comp(!) hahahahaha.

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i think baby doesnt care abt me anymore. it’s all my fault. i was e one who hurt him in e first place. maybe it’s not a bad thing after all. like wat many ppl haf said, he’s jus not e right one for me.

alrite.. i dunno.. i’m jus very confused now. i wan my baby but ppl tell me he’s not e one for me. so one part of me says no, dun call him again, n e other says yeah, i miss him. sobs…

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i’m bloody sick n drowsy at home all alone on a fri nite. sobs.. e bloody lozenges taste so weird n everytime after i suck on them i lose my sense of taste. cldnt even taste my favourite kueh baulus jus now. so poor thing..

n then i jus hadda call yujin to complain to him how terrible i feel. thank god he was pretty nice n asked me to go take a rest et al. man.. wat a weak bitch. talk abt bein independent n not lookin for him anymore. sheesh..

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i seriously felt my heart skip a beat when i saw anthony come online tonite. my god.. how loser can i get man?? hahahaha. n then we chatted for jus a while.. talkin abt how hardworkin i m nowadays.. n abt his wakeboardin. n then there wasnt tt much to say anymore.

after some silence i jus said i was goin to bed. n then it’s time like this tt i miss yujin again.. oh damn. i’m jus sucha bitch. come to think of it, he was really sweet to “confess” to me wat he was doin tt day to help his ex. haha. yes, i noe.. there’re jus too many differences n we can’t be together. wateva.. i dun care anymore!!!

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it’s national day~! i’ve not watched NDP for yrs, n i’ve neva cared abt national day in e past. but this yr, i was really excited abt watchin it.. watchin e 3 chinooks fly past wif e flag, watchin e color party, e fireworks et al. yeah.. it was prolly cos of anthony. he was flyin in no. 2 chinook..

maybe it’s cos national day reminded me too much of him. i kept dreamin of him for many nites b4 this. i’ve seldom dreamt abt him even in e past. it totally sucks.. i jus miss him so much but i jus can’t tell him.

yes, n i told yujin baby tt we jus can’t be together. tt was after he “confessed” to me tt he was helpin his ex in gettin outta some shit. he thot it was cos of his “confession” tt i came to such a decision, but it really wasnt. shockin thing was.. he cried cos of it. gosh.. i feel kinda guilty. damn.

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i’ve got shit color on my toes! dun ask me why.. angel n qi said e color looks damn nice tho. gosh. they jus look like shit, mud n milo to me. hahaha.

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