Monday, June 14, 2004

oh god…

man.. i’m so damn fuckin horny tonite. hehehe. this evenin i came back frm work n was jus lyin on my bed, thinkin of all e things i used to do wif anthony while we clubbed. sweatz.. tum ah! (aka wet..) hahahaha. ok i’m mad.. wahahahaha!
 
yeah n e best thing is.. i din masturbate! wahahaha. all i did was to lie there n fantasize n it actually felt very good. oh god.. i need a fling!! hahahaha.
 
 
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Sunday, June 13, 2004

if u’d loved me…

i was jus so happy while chattin wif angel as we tanned this afternoon but rite after i read xiaoxiao’s latest post, i went into depression again.
 
it wasnt cos she’s back wif anthony. she jus wrote a poem for him, sayin goodbye to him. n “countin number 50 chocolate day” was all she had to say to make me cry.
 
for e benefit of dum fucks, it jus meant tt they counted each day tt they were together or knew each other as 1 chocolate day.
 
suddenly i’m reminded of all e pain i’ve gone thru since we broke up. it seems like jus yesterday tt we were together n yet so much has happened n everythin is constantly playin back in my head. it hurts like hell. if u’d loved me, u wldn’t have hurt me like this.
 
y do i wanna read all her posts when i’m so damn bloody affected by everythin she says? i have no idea boy. i oughta be slapped twice in e face to wake up my idea. i think i jus need a new bf. someone who can make me fall in love once again. someone who can take away all my pain..
 
 
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Saturday, June 12, 2004

stoned…

it’s one of those days when i jus turn down every appt n stay at home n end up super duper bored.. haf no idea y but i’ve got practically nothin to do at home n yet jus feel so lazy to get outta e hse. damn.
 
was so lazy tt i din even go downstairs to buy breakfast/brunch/lunch. i wanna eat mrs fields brownies!! nice fren liangcai offered to get them for me n pass them to me at amk later. heh. thanks dude, but i guess i jus hafta get my ass outta e hse later. i’m one big time procrastinator.. but not always ok? jus today.. n some days.. n sometimes..
 
n i jus lost my phone in my hse.. gotta call myself to see which blanket or pillow or which pile of clothes had it all covered up.
 
to sidetrack a lil, i love to say i wanna get in the covers!! cos it sounds so much more cosy to be in the covers than jus under them. hahahahaha!
 
 
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Friday, June 11, 2004

disturbed…

two nites ago anthony asked if i wanna watch harry potter. i was so disturbed tt i cldn’t slp tt nite. n when i finally fell aslp i had a nightmare! i dreamt tt we were back together, n were jus as happy as we used to be..
 
while huggin him i suddenly asked when was e last time he fucked. in e most innocent manner he said “hmmm.. maybe a nite or two ago?” fuck.. then i started askin him why he wanna be wif me again. he said he doesnt noe, n he jus wanna give everything a try.
 
i started cryin.. n i actually woke up frm e dream in tears. it’s scary how disturbed i am cos of him n his everythin..
 
frens who noe abt xiaoxiao n her blog wld noe tt she’s been feelin really down lately. it’s so disturbin too to noe tt 2 girls r writin their blogs on a guy who doesnt even noe wat he wans. pitiful girls..
 
anyway we were supposed to watch e movie tonite n nabeh he was stuck at work. wasted my whole fri nite!! damn…
 
anyway frens r welcomed to leave brief comments for this post.. i love comments! but pls dun write essay-like advice if u dunno e whole story cos i find tt disturbin too..
 
 
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Monday, June 7, 2004

frustrated…

public transport is makin me go mad. there r thousands of sick singaporeans i meet everyday durin e rush hrs. pushin n squeezin like they’re damn fuckin scared they can’t get onto e train.. my god.
 
it’s always exhaustin for me to take trains at those hrs cos i needa always look out for these idiots i’m always so scared of bein pushed or touched by others. i jus dun like physical contact wif strangers.
 
every small lil thing is makin me really pissed these days. i think there’s more reason to tt than those fuckin irritatin ppl. today i suspect tt i might be sexually frustrated. shit..
 
think it’s time to get a fling! wahahahahahaha!
 
 
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Friday, June 4, 2004

the best joke…

HOW TO MAKE LOVE

Ingredients:
4 Laughing eyes
4 Well-shaped legs
4 Loving arms
2 Firm milk containers
2 Nuts
1 Fur-lined mixing bowl
1 Firm banana

Directions:
1. Look into laughing eyes.
2. Spread well-shaped legs with loving arms.
3. Squeeze and massage milk containers very gently.
4. Gently add firm banana to mixing bowl, working in and out until well creamed. For best results. Continue to knead milk containers.
5. As heat rises, plunge banana deep into mixing bowl and cover with nuts, leave to soak (preferably NOT overnight).
6. The cake is done when banana is soft. If banana does not soften, repeat for steps 3-5 or change mixing bowls.

Notes:
1. If you are in an unfamiliar kitchen, wash utensils carefully before and after use.
2. Do not lick mixing bowl after use.
3. If cake rises, leave town.

 
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it’s fri nite again…

intrinsa is a testosterone patch for women wif low sexual desires. imagine if i use tt.. sia lar! hong kan.. wahahaha.
 
it’s fri nite again. i’m at home n naturally.. feelin a lil down n missin someone i shldn’t even be thinkin of..
 
anyway, was surfin frenster n i cldn’t stop laughin when i saw this pic! i dunno who these 2 ppl r, but it’s really funnie!!
 
 
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Wednesday, June 2, 2004

another brk up…

two days ago i was surfin frenster n i realised anthony’s colleague declared himself as single. puzzled, n bein e super duper kpo tt i am, i checked out wif ant n found out tt tt colleague’s jus divorced recently.
 
apparently e wife cldn’t stand it anymore cos he spends too much time n cash on his bikes n pals, n kao pehs when she spends any bit of money. hmmm.. but still i din think tt’s sufficient reason to get a divorce. i mean.. y can’t they jus talk things thru?
 
well.. news of brk ups always make me a lil sad. i dun get y couples divorce so easily. i jus believe tt everythin can be worked out if both parties make tt extra bit of effort. it’s jus so sad when one party doesn’t wanna make e effort.. then y be together in e first place? n how bout all those i love you tt they’ve said? man.. i neva can make sense out of brk ups..
 
 
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we r lil’ piggys!!

hahaha.. we used to play mahjong till e next morn at sze han’s hse n slp there after tt. angel n lionel wld wake up damn early n leave first while i slp till noon.
 
but today we woke up at i forgot wat time, had our brunch, n all went back to slp~! we left sze han’s hse at 3.30pm in e end. man.. we r such pigs now!
 
albeit enjoyin my frens’ company, this mahjong session is really sibeh kns. first, i was forced to give clubbin a miss to play mahjong wif them. then there was this fuckin irritatin fren’s fren who joined us n made all of us so pissed at him. n e worst thing among all was i lost $60 in e end.. crap!! wtf..
 
i dun think i’ll eva needa spend $60 clubbin lor. n i bet i derive more fun frm clubbin then playin mahjong overnite. n then e worst worst worst thing of all.. sze han din haf coke or anythin in e hse to mix e Martell!! nabeh. bet she wans us to drink it neat n make us seh so she can win all our money. HMPH!
 
 
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