if u’d loved me…
i was jus so happy while chattin wif angel as we tanned this afternoon but rite after i read xiaoxiao’s latest post, i went into depression again.
it wasnt cos she’s back wif anthony. she jus wrote a poem for him, sayin goodbye to him. n “countin number 50 chocolate day” was all she had to say to make me cry.
for e benefit of dum fucks, it jus meant tt they counted each day tt they were together or knew each other as 1 chocolate day.
suddenly i’m reminded of all e pain i’ve gone thru since we broke up. it seems like jus yesterday tt we were together n yet so much has happened n everythin is constantly playin back in my head. it hurts like hell. if u’d loved me, u wldn’t have hurt me like this.
y do i wanna read all her posts when i’m so damn bloody affected by everythin she says? i have no idea boy. i oughta be slapped twice in e face to wake up my idea. i think i jus need a new bf. someone who can make me fall in love once again. someone who can take away all my pain..
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